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The Pink Menace

  • Reading time: fifteen minutes
  • Word count: 2448
  • Published: 22 may 2013
  • Author: Matt Matrisciano
  • Copyright: Matt Matrisciano, 2013


Logan wished he weren’t driving.

“How’s the car look?” Phil asked over the phone.

“Let’s pretend they screwed up the paint job.”

“Ok.”

“Should they repaint it free?”

“I’d say yeah.”

“They screwed up the paint job.”

“Damn.”

“…”

“But you got it re-done. There’s no way you’d drive off without them owning up to their mistake.”

“Nope. Manager refused to fix it. He said the coat was even and smooth and sealed nice, so there was no defect.”

“Huh. That’s, that’s some—”

“He said I could of course pay them to re-do it.”

“Did they screw up the color?”

“Yes.”

“The most obvious part, they screw it up, and then they won’t fix it?”

“Yeah.”

“What color did they paint it?”

“Pink.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

Half an hour later Logan thanked the good Lord above the record shop had been slow the last week or so. He had time to get used to the Bismol-pink paint before any regulars harassed him about it. He also had time to stop in and get his paycheck. He parked near the door and walked in.

At the counter, straight back and just out of line with the door, Scherry stood next to the register, reading a comic book. The owner had told her to stop reading at the counter but never did anything about it. She worked only every few days.

“What are you reading?”

Scherry propped her chin with her hand. “One of the new Batmans. Another gritty reboot.”

“Like Batman Begins?”

“But this one’s bad.”

“I don’t read comics.”

“Basically they keep killing everyone off.”

“Like a horror movie.” Logan leaned on the counter. “The old man print out our paychecks?”

“Yep. They’re right back—” Scherry tore a piece of receipt paper and marked her page. “Here.” She turned around and unlocked the middle floor cabinet behind her and shuffled through some papers. She faced the counter again and handed Logan an envelope.

“How’s today?”

Scherry slid the comic behind the register. “Pretty slow so far.”

“Same as the last week or so. Every April. That music fest kills us.”

Scherry sprayed the counter and wiped it with a paper towel. “Scotty came in again this morning.”

“To talk about his thirty-seventh band, I’m sure.”

“Something. He’s really proud of the name. Cans of Piss.”

“He should change his last name to Stipe.”

Scherry stopped wiping and squinted at the front door. “Whose car is that?”

“What?”

“The pink one out by the door. Sun’s bouncing off and blinding me.”

Their shadows on the back wall were surrounded by pink. “Good lord.”

“Right?”

“No. That’s my car.”

Scherry’s eyes bugged out.

“…”

Scherry grinned. “I never thought pink was your color.”

“It isn’t.”

“I know. Good that you know. You can’t keep it pink.”

“They won’t repaint it free. Manager said the coat was done right and sealed proper. Says even though the color’s wrong, they did nothing wrong.”

“You can’t keep it pink, Logan. It’s not manly.”

“Manly?”

Scherry snickered.

“Sure. I can’t afford to repaint it.”

“So you’re saying pink is your color.”

“And even if I had the money, why would I give more to the screw-ups who won’t admit they screwed up?”

“It’s not your color.” Scherry laughed. “Really isn’t.”

“You know, at least Phil was reasonable about it earlier.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

“Wow. Your place is impossibly clean.” Phil walked in the front door.

“Yours is just impossibly unclean.” Logan shut the door. “Now my cousin Sam, his place is impossibly clean. It’s like he doesn’t live there.”

Phil stepped into the kitchen. “You still got some of that Abita?”

“Amber. One.”

Phil opened the door. “Mind if I have it?”

“Yes.”

“…”

“But you’re gonna keep asking me about it. Go for it.”

Phil opened the beer—“Good man”—and had a gulp. “Man. That Amber’s bitchin’.”

Bitchin’? I thought you said shiny now.”

Phil shrugged mid-sip.

“Wha’d you come over for, again? I know you got beer at your place.”

Phil put the bottle down. “I’ve got a directive for you.” He leaned on the counter.

“A directive.”

Phil nodded.

“What about.”

Phil nodded toward the door.

“I always have a wreath hanging there.”

“Not that. You know what I mean.”

“No, I don’t.”

“Vroom vroom.”

“The car?” Logan took the beer from Phil.

“What else would I mean?”

“Specifically the pink paint.”

“Specifically the pink paint.”

“I told you, I can’t afford a new paint job.” Logan dumped the beer into the sink. “The manager insists the shop did nothing wrong. Money down the drain for me—”

“Waste of a beer.”

“—and they’re the cheapest place in town. Plus, I don’t care about the color. And if it somehow bothered me so much that I’d borrow money to get it re-done, I wouldn’t go back to them.”

“You like a girl’s color.”

“I don’t like it or dislike it. It’s just a color.”

“You’re saying that ’cause you like it.”

“And you were so reasonable about it this morning.”

“Is there something you want to say?”

“Yeah. You’re an ass. Get out.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

Mid morning at the record shop and its must and mildew still hadn’t aired out: It had rained an hour ago. The seal under the front door had worn out years back, so the water leaked into the carpet.

“How bad do your clothes smell?” Logan said.

Kaylee next to him stretched her arms on the register and sniffed her sleeves. “I can’t tell if that’s me or the carpet.”

“That’s my line.”

Kaylee pulled her arms back and shielded her eyes. “What’s giving off all that light?”

“What light?” Logan squinted at the light.

“Is that a Sentra?”

“…”

“Is it—pink?”

“…”

Kaylee turned to Logan. “You drive a Sentra, yeah?”

Logan nodded.

“Would you ever paint—”

“No, I wouldn’t. But that is my car.”

“I knew you were getting it re-painted the other day, but I thought you were getting forest green again.”

“I was. But the paint shop felt pink was better.”

“You’re kidding.”

“Yeah. But they painted the wrong color and refused to re-do it. At least the coat’s smooth and sealed nice. You can check it later. They did it right.”

“But wrong.”

“But wrong.”

“It’s ok.”

“Principle-wise, no. Practically, yes.”

“It’s just a car. You know?”

“I bought it a year after college. I’ve had it for ten years. I love that car.”

“It’s not you. You can always get it repainted.”

“Already spent my car-painting money.”

“Eventually.”

“Sure. And till then, it’ll sit there in that garish Bismol pink. Out of every shade, it had to be bubblegum.”

The door squeaked open—a tall woman walked in—and slammed shut.

“The manager actually tried telling me it’s easy to get green and pink mixed up.

“Whose car is that out there?” The woman’s feet squished across the carpet.

“Mine.”

“That gaudy pink bastard out there is yours?” The woman laughed. “Are you gay?”

Logan walked out from behind the counter. “Funny, huh.”

“Well, yeah.”

Logan sidled up to the woman. “Get out.”

“I just walked in. You can’t kick me out.”

Logan pointed to a sign behind the counter: UNRULY, RUDE, OR OTHERWISE UNSAVORY CUSTOMERS WILL BE REMOVED BY MGMT—MGMT.

“You a manager?”

“Nope.”

“So you can’t kick me out.”

“Technically, no.”

“Then I’m not leaving.”

“But the woman at the register—her name’s Kaylee—she’s a manager.”

“Ok.”

“Hey, Kaylee!”

“Mmmm?”

“You think we should kick this customer out?”

Kaylee joined Logan and the woman. “You making fun of him for his car’s paint job?”

“It’s pink, so yes. And?”

“Get out.”

“Make me.”

“You really don’t want her to do that.” Logan walked to the counter. He pulled up his sleeve. “See this bruise?” At least half his bicep was a dark bluish purple. “That’s from last week when I cracked a joke about her purse.”

“…”

Kaylee looked at Logan, then back at the man. “He’s not lying.” He was. He’d lost a bet, and Phil got to hit Logan’s arm with a baseball bat.

“…”

“Out,” Kaylee said.

The woman flipped her off and walked out.

“It’s pink.” Kaylee walked back behind the counter. “It’s just a color.”

Logan was hunched over the counter, staring at the front door. “I know that. But she doesn’t know that.”

“It’s just that one person.”

“No it’s not. Two days ago Scherry wouldn’t admit it’s just a color. Then Phil wouldn’t either. And that woman we just kicked out, she was in here yesterday giving me shit.”

“I wish it was Scotty. We could finally ban that guy.”

“He was in here yesterday, too.”

“Of course.”

“He thought pink was a clever ironic statement.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

“You never invite me to your place any sooner than five days out.” Logan stepped into Scherry’s apartment and sat down on the couch in the living room. “What happened? Did you finally ask Joe out?”

“Nothing like that.” Scherry locked the door. “Nothing at all.” She turned around. “But you can’t sit there. Table, please.”

Logan looked at the kitchen table. He walked to it—“Now I know something’s up”—and sat down.

Scherry sidled up to the table.

“You gonna sit down?”

“Not yet.”

“…”

“I’m staging an intervention.”

“Which of your friends is on drugs?”

“For you.”

“It’s not Joe, is—for me?”

“I know you won’t take me seriously. I got someone you’ll listen to.” She turned her head. “You can come out now!”

Logan’s mother walked into the breakfast area.

“You got my mom to come down here? God.”

Logan’s mother sat at the kitchen table across from Logan. “I’m so disappointed in you.”

“What am I doing so seriously wrong?”

“It’s your car.”

“…”

“Why is it pink.”

“Oh, you’re shitting me.”

“You watch your mouth!”

“You’re upsetting your mother.”

“It’s just a color. A weird color for a car, sure.”

“I never knew you were gay.”

“…”

“That’s what this intervention’s about.” Scherry finally sat down at the table. “People think you’re gay now.”

“Let them. I don’t care.”

Logan’s mom shook her head.

“You haven’t had a girlfriend in two years. And it’s not like you have a girl on your arm everywhere you go. Plus Kelsey looked kind of boyish.”

“I might expect my mom to say that, Scherry. Maybe. But you?” Logan stood up—“Stop being stupid”—and walked out the apartment.

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

Gasoline vapors hung and burned smooth inside Logan’s nose as he stood next to his car waiting for the gas pump to shut off. A man in a neat-pressed suit walked out of the convenience store. He changed his path to pass right next to Logan’s car.

“You being a good man, huh?” He smiled. “Filling up your girlfriend’s car on a wet rainy day.”

“It’s not my girlfriend’s car.”

“Sister’s?”

“I don’t have a sister. I don’t have a girlfriend.”

“…”

“It’s mine.”

“Yours.”

Logan shut his eyes, gritted his teeth, and nodded. “Yeah. Mine.”

“Fag.”

Logan saw himself taking the nozzle out of the tank and spraying gasoline at the man as he walked off. He opened his eyes. Still a few gallons to go. He thought of taking up smoking just so he could say “Fag? But we don’t live in Britain.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

“You look upset. Rough day?”

Logan beside his car looked for the source of the voice. A woman in a flowery dress stood on the other side of his car. “Off week.”

The woman smiled and walked to him. “I just want you to know, I get the struggle you go through every day. Your car color’s a bold statement. Very brave.”

Logan finally got his key in the door. He said nothing, got in, and started the engine.

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

“Hey man, that your ride, or your girlfriend’s?”

Logan knew he should’ve ridden with his windows up.

The driver next to him was a somewhat muscular guy in a bright blue polo and a white visor, worn backwards and upside-down.

Logan knew he shouldn’t answer. “It’s mine.”

“Nice car, faggot!” The man threw a cup at Logan’s car. It hit the front fender. Coffee splashed onto the hood and windshield.

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

“I understand you’re upset, sir”—the manager wore a serious concerned look on his face—“but we can’t re-paint your car at no charge just because you spilled coffee on it.”

“It’s not the coffee. You guys painted it the wrong color. I was going to live with that for a few years, but my friends harassed me about it all this week. Just today three strangers did the same.”

“Is the coat even? Is the seal solid?”

“I think so.”

“Then we’re under no obligation to re-paint it for free. If you want, you can pay us to paint your car again.”

“…”

“Oh my God, what’s that garish pink thing out there?”

“My car.”

That’s your car? I can see why you want to re-paint it.”

“You and your boys are the ones who screwed it up.”

“Are you gonna get your boyfriend to argue with me? Rough me up? Have a stern chat over tea?”

Logan grabbed the manager’s shirt, threw him into the wall, and walked out.

“I—I’ll give you that one free. Get out before I call the cops.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

Logan drove to the lakeside cliffs outside town. The night was warm, but not muggy. He stopped at a cliff’s edge, left the engine running, and turned on the radio. On the college station Dave Matthews was singing the opening of one of his band’s closing songs: “If I go / Before I’m old / Oh brother of mine / Please don’t forget me if I go.” The ooh-zee-ing of locusts wafted through the windows and over the music.

As the song finally faded out, Logan backed up far from the edge. He hadn’t been able to find another paint shop in town. He unbuckled his seatbelt and made sure his door was unlocked. He floored the accelerator, and when the car hit twenty-five he resumed the cruise control. He adjusted the steering wheel, then jumped out his door. He rolled himself to a stop and looked toward his beloved car.

The Sentra drove on, obeying its computer, unaware it was in charge of its own destiny now. Its pink paint streaked long and bright in the dusk light, ghosting in lines that ended in arcs long after the car had leapt off the cliff into the water below. The streaks shot down to the bottom of the lake, a gaudy pink candy cane that stood and glowed for three days after.


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Why I Love Beastie Boys' Paul's Boutique

  • Reading time: four minutes
  • Word count: 696
  • Published: 15 may 2013
  • Author: Matt Matrisciano
  • Copyright: Matt Matrisciano, 2013


Last May, when I heard Paul’s Boutique for the very first time, two things immediately stood out: The album is full of life, and it is layered and dense. More importantly, Paul’s Boutique knows when to be dense, and it knows when to pull back, and for a record built so heavily on sampled music, sounds, and dialog, it doesn’t feel at all like it was assembled in a studio, much like “Good Vibrations” or Dark Side of the Moon. The Dust Brothers and Beastie Boys were smart not only in what music, sounds, and dialog they sampled, but also in how they used it all: Everything sounds and feels right when and where they use it.

The Beastie Boys aren’t just rapping over a handful of beats the Dust Brothers have sampled. For the most part, they’re re-purposing their sourced sounds and riffs entirely. On “Shadrach,” for example, the Beastie Boys’ brash and loud delivery is balanced out by the female vocal from Sly Stone’s “Loose Booty”; instead of being a part of the manic energy on “Shadrach” as it is on “Booty,” the female vocal in the Beastie Boys cut helps ground the vocals as a whole, presiding over the song’s calmer moments. And on the first half of “The Sounds of Science,” which has the Beasties rapping over Paul McCartney’s slow swingy bassline from “When I’m Sixty-Four,” it is the Boys who are setting the song’s rhythm. They aren’t rapping to or around the beat—they are rapping the beat itself, and McCartney’s bassline becomes a backdrop.

The Beastie Boys and Dust Brothers didn’t look at Paul’s Boutique as simply a collage, and it certainly doesn’t feel like one. Sound effects and dialog are used as accents, counterpoints, interjections the Boys react to, and, occasionally, links between segments and songs. Sometimes they’re used to illustrate the Beasties’ lyrics, and some musical samples serve as accents or markers—e.g. the one guitar note from “Mississippi Queen” on “Looking Down the Barrel of a Gun”—but even these more incidental samples never stick out, because they are intentional parts of the music as a whole.

Rather than relying on past work to provide a musical framework for them, the Boys and the Brothers create their own backbone by disassembling music and sounds and reassembling them into new rhythmic and textural spines. They’re using the sampled music and sounds to round out the album’s sound, to fill the empty spaces, to give the album muscle, flavor, and energy—the opposite of sampling a beat and getting the bulk of a song’s flavor from the rapper’s rhymes. In fact, the Beasties’ vocals are mixed only just above the sampled and live instrumentation, instead of being clearly and obviously on top, and so their voices become another texture in the album’s broad palette.

The vocals aren’t the album’s primary flavor, though, so the beats and music, rather than being looped endlessly, change to suit their songs. There are sections that are fairly repetitive, but the BB/DB stave off monotony by disappearing riffs and loops and bringing them back later on in the song, sometimes replacing or complementing them with another riff or texture, sometimes not. This is not to say the songs are never repetitive. Oftentimes they are—Paul’s Boutique is still pop music, after all. But its repetition is not monotonous. This is an album whose instrumental version you could enjoy.

Paul’s Boutique is a paragon of the phrase standing on the shoulders of giants: The Beastie Boys and Dust Brothers have made a lively, original new work out of scores of disparate riffs and sounds. They have shown just how new a thing one can make out of what’s come before. On top of this—and maybe this is the real issue—Paul’s Boutique is good, eminently listenable music. Twenty-four years after release, it doesn’t sound stale or dated but, rather, fresh, vibrant, and alive—and even if their subsequent albums didn’t match the promise of this one, Paul’s Boutique stands as a testament to the Beastie Boys’ talent, ability, and vision, and definitively proves that sampling can be, and is, a lively form of art.


  • Artist: Beastie Boys
  • Album: Paul’s Boutique
  • Released: 25 jul 1989
  • Genre: Hip Hop
  • Duration: 53:08
  • Label: Capitol
  • Artwork:
    Album artwork for PAULS BOUTIQUE

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Eighteen Gallons to Freedom

  • Reading time: fifteen minutes
  • Word count: 2600
  • Published: 8 may 2013
  • Author: Matt Matrisciano
  • Copyright: Matt Matrisciano, 2013


Daniels had hoped he would make it to the gas station before he ran out of fuel. Only two miles separated his apartment and the Chevron with the slow pumps, but he hadn’t been able to coax his car to go more than halfway before its engine shut off. He had to coast across two lanes of traffic into a Wal-mart parking lot. When the car stopped rolling just inside the entrance, he got out to push. No one offered help. The person in the car behind him honked and went around him and nearly crashed into another car leaving the lot.

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

At the pump closest to Daniels there stood a man, maybe fresh out of college, next to a car the same color and generation as his own Camry. This wasn’t why Daniels walked over. What called to Daniels was the man’s neat-trimmed beard, which made him look friendly—and also wiser than he should be, or maybe actually was.

The bearded man looked left, saw Daniels, and snapped his head back toward the pump. Daniels approached anyway. When he got to the bearded man the bearded man sighed.

“You be willing to do me a solid?”

The bearded man said nothing.

“Be your good deed for the day.”

The bearded man stared at the pump as it counted. “What you need.”

“My car’s out of gas and I need to get to work.”

“How much gas does it hold?”

“The car? Eighteen—”

“The gas can.”

“Five gallons.”

“…”

“That’s, what, seventeen bucks?”

“…”

“Can’t you afford seventeen dollars?”

The bearded man glanced at Daniels. “Yeah. Sure.”

“Thank you very much, you have no—”

“Just—please. Don’t want to talk.”

“Ok.”

“I’ll get you your gas.”

“Ok.”

The pump stopped. The bearded man hung the nozzle and got his receipt. “Give me the container.” He took the gas can and unscrewed its cap. “Where’s your car at? Is eighty-seven all right?”

“Eighty-seven’s fine.”

“All right.” He held back the nozzle’s protective flap as it pissed out fuel.

“I came from the Wal-mart down the road.”

“That’s where your car is?”

“Yeah.”

“You walked?”

“What else I’m gonna do.”

“Mile off.”

“Not such a bad walk.”

“No. But it’s hot out. You’re dressed in black.”

“…”

“Turkey Lake’s no fun either.”

“Wasn’t so bad.”

The bearded man stopped pumping. “Looks full to me. Pump says just over five gallons.”

“Thank you so much.”

The bearded man hung the nozzle and took his receipt. “Take care.” He got into his car and drove off.

“Take care. What else I’m gonna do. Dump it out?” He picked up the gas can. “God. That’s heavy.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

When Daniels got his car to a safe spot—which hugged the bushes along the far edge of the Wal-mart parking lot and faced a protected area whose plants looked like raggy knotted hair—he found his one break that morning: a gas can in the trunk. He thought maybe his old roommate had let him borrow it once. Its long narrow yellow spout, sealed off with a thin plastic cap, was still bright despite how much dirt clung to it. So much grit and debris covered the spout’s base he shook some off and coughed.

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

Daniels’s mouth stuck and stank from the walk, but he wouldn’t ask anyone for a drink. “Keep it to what you need,” he muttered. “Air’s got water enough.” He crossed the parking lot’s edge and stopped.

Elephants at the watering hole: four cars at four pumps. The cars shut off and waiting, their people tending to them, sloshing black water over their grimy windshields before wiping them down. Daniels couldn’t tell if what stewed in his nose was his own musk from the walk or the gas and water and rubber all mixing together.

Daniels tapped the gas can against his leg. He wouldn’t ask any families today. He’d asked a family for directions once and almost wound up in jail. His ex was even with him that day.

Daniels walked inside the convenience store. After his first return to his car he’d found a few dollars in his glove box. He decided to buy a peanut bar and a bottle of water.

The cashier eyed Daniels’s gas can.

“For gas.”

“I know.”

Daniels placed the bar and the water on the counter.

“What you brought it in for? Why’n’t you leave it in your car?”

“Last time I did that someone stole it. The gas can.”

“Three twenty-one.”

Outside, the lot was now empty. Daniels wondered if he’d enjoyed the A/C too long. He sat down on the curb where the cashier couldn’t see him and wolfed the peanut bar. In the middle of a sip of water two kids drove in in an older convertible. When the driver got out Daniels got up and walked over. He didn’t know how long he’d have to wait otherwise.

“Scuse me.”

The kid had just pulled the nozzle off the pump. “Yeah?” He stank of cigarette smoke.

“My car’s just down the road at the Wal-mart on Turkey Lake.”

“There’s a Wal-mart down the road?”

“Been there a couple years.”

“I never go down that way.”

“He never goes to Wal-mart.” It wasn’t the boy who stank of cigarettes, it was the girl in the passenger seat. She was smoking.

“This’s a gas station, yeah? Ma’am?”

She glanced at him.

“I tell her that all the time. She never listens to me. She’s not pumping the gas, she says.”

“Please put it out, it’s making me nervous.”

She snorted and tamped the cigarette in an ashtray.

“Thank you.”

“You need something, man?”

“My car’s a mile down the road.”

“Right. At Wal-mart.”

“At Wal-mart. Ran out of gas this morning. I was on my way over to fill up but it dried up.”

“So you need gas.”

“…”

“You got a card? Cash?”

“Why’d I ask if you I had money.”

“…”

“I just need five gallons.”

“Five gallons?”

“Eighty-seven grade. That’s seventeen dollars.”

“Exact?”

“No, exact is sixteen ninety-five.”

“How you know that?”

“That’s how much it cost the guy I asked earlier.”

“Your car’s got gas in it already.”

“Yeah.”

“You walked back after you put some gas in it.”

“Yeah.”

“Just drive it here.”

“Hadn’t thought of that.” He had. But Daniels liked disappearing. No one person the same on one visit as on another—he hoped—and it was easier asking for five gallons than asking for eighteen. “I’ll do that next time.” He wouldn’t.

The nozzle pissed away. Drunk man at the grandfather clock. The fumes bent the car’s edges.

“You gonna be able to spare me five gallons?”

“What?”

“He asked you if you’d fill up that gas can for him,” the girl said.

The boy looked from the girl to the man. “Oh.” Girl, then the man. “Sure. Why not? It’s my parents’ card anyway.”

“I ’preciate y’all. Lost my bank card last night and all I had in cash was maybe four dollars in my glove box.”

“That sucks.”

“Heading out of town today, too.”

“Yeah?”

“Panama City.”

“Beach?”

“No. Moving. My friend’s got a job for me there.”

“Right on.”

“Sure. It’s hotel work. Right on. I can’t stand this area and I’m going up there to do what I done here the last twelve years.” He unscrewed the gas cap. “Does that make me an idiot?”

The pump clicked off. “You said eighty-seven?” The boy replaced the nozzle. “Why are you telling me this?”

“So maybe you might learn there’s honest people. Trust them sometimes.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

Most of the pumps were in use when Daniels got to the corner the third time. The only person not there with family and not in a business suit stood in the very back corner next to an older sedan, the same inoffensive faded brown-gold as every other Saturn people had been driving here the last fifteen years.

Daniels crossed the dead space between the edge and the pumps, careful not to catch his gas can on anything. The woman next to the Saturn was putting the cap back on her tank when he reached her.

“Afternoon.”

She jumped. “The hell?”

“Sorry.”

“What’re you gonna do?”

“What? Nothing.”

“…”

“Look at me. I’m dressed the same as you.” His black polo, which was faded and lined with white sweat stains, hung down to just below the top of his black jeans. It wasn’t an exact match for her clean maroon polo tucked into neat black slacks, but he figured it was close enough.

“Not exactly.”

“Close enough?”

“Maybe.”

He smiled.

“Ok, where’s this going.”

Why the smile why, he thought as he reached his hand—the one holding the gas can—to his head to scratch it. It hit him in the mouth.

“Gas?”

“Yes.” He paused. “I’m about to get started cutting grass for McDonald’s across the street there but there’s no fuel in the mower and the guys sent me over by myself to get some.”

She looked behind him. “And you don’t have money on you.”

“No. I told them I didn’t. I said give me some cash when they insisted. They didn’t listen to me.” Daniels put the container down. “I’m the new guy.”

“Why you have to ask me, though? There’s someone at almost every other pump here.”

“Most them are wearing suits. Suits get angry. They call the cops.”

“Mm.”

“The rest, they’re families. Go into alpha mode when I walk up. Protect the kids, I guess.”

Finally she took her receipt from the pump.

“You drive a car maybe old as mine, you dress similar—where you work?”

“Chick-fil-A.”

“The one right here?” He pointed his head left.

“No. The one near Downtown Disney.”

“Yeah?”

“I did just come out of this one. We need cups and our truck doesn’t come in for two days.”

“Two days?”

“Delivery fees. Owner doesn’t want to pay to receive product every day. Same for garbage pickup.”

“You like the job?”

She laughed. “It’s fast food. What’s there to like?”

“You hate it?”

“Do you actually need gas?”

“Yes.”

“I thought maybe you were just here to talk to me. Or whoever you came across.”

“No ma’am.” He unscrewed the cap.

“How much you need?”

“The whole can. Five gallons.”

“I’m not giving you ninety-one or nothing.”

“Please, no. Lowest grade’s what I need.”

“…”

“Thank you so much. Really ’preciate it.”

“Tell your boys lighten up, all right?”

“My boys?”

“The lawn guys.”

“Oh, them. They won’t listen. They don’t care. I’m not even supposed to be running the mower today. But the guy who is didn’t want to do it. So I am.”

“Like the kids on register at work. Tell them they got to check ice every fifteen minutes, right? They might, they might not. Got to keep on top of them, even if they’ve been there two years.”

“You a manager?”

“Mmhmm.”

“They should listen to you.”

“They should. Some do. But then some know the owner—not how to do or learn the job. So they complain to him.”

“Fire them.”

She laughed. “Sometimes,” she stopped and checked the gas, “I wish I could.”

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

Daniels walked along Turkey Lake. The high and hollow sound of tires rolling past. Some engines growled and others whined, but most of them bore their one-point-five-ton burdens without complaint. He walked against traffic. He’d always walked and biked against traffic. “I’d at least like to see who’s running me over,” he would tell his ex. He walked slow, as if trying to up his chances of getting run over.

The gas can knocked against his right leg every few steps. He wanted to throw it into the street, right into someone’s windshield. When the gas can was full, he walked with traffic. Thirty pounds of liquid would’ve been too heavy to carry when it came time to sprint across four lanes.

♣ ♦ ♥ ♠

“What do you mean you won’t give me gas?”

“Just that. I’m not giving you any.”

“Why not?”

“Where’s your car?”

“I told you. Just down the road in the Wal-mart parking lot.”

“Why isn’t it here?”

“It ran out of gas.”

“Sure.”

“Not like I’m going to turn around and sell it.”

“…”

“Seriously?”

“…”

“Not like people buy gas from strangers out of dumpy old gas cans. Specially people in faded sweat-stained shirts.”

“I don’t have to buy you gasoline, man.”

“No. You don’t.”

“And I’m not. So ask someone else.”

Daniels’s mouth was dry. His joints were paper-light. His forearms were heavy. His feet ached and throbbed. The heat rising from the tar and concrete had been baking and the sun and wet air had been broiling him all day. The hot red gas can now stuck to his leg. His leg was scratched and tender from all the lugging today.

“We barely have enough to pay for our own gas. We’re a small local band. We just got the van a few weeks ago.”

“Cost you seventeen bucks. Come on.”

“What?”

“To fill up the can. Seventeen dollars.”

“We still got to go to the store and get oil. This thing burns through it quick.”

Daniels shut his eyes. A waking sleep.

“We can bring you back to Wal-mart if you’d like.”

“What good’s that gonna do! I still need gas.”

“…”

“You know what? God bless.”

As the drummer turned around to get in the van, someone stepped out the opposite side and walked around.

“We ready to leave, Colin?”

“Yeah. Just need oil.”

“What’s this guy doing here?”

“You could just ask me.”

“Ask him.”

“What are you doing here?”

“Asking for gasoline.”

Colin got in the van.

“Where’s your car?”

“Mile down the road.”

“Did he give you any?”

“Gas?”

“Yeah.”

“No.”

“He didn’t?”

“Nope. Gave me nothing. Said y’all’s money was tight.”

“Sure.”

“…”

“How much you need?”

“Five gallons. Seventeen bucks or so.”

“Hang on.” He walked to the driver’s door and asked Colin how much money they had. He walked back. “I can give you ten bucks’ worth. That’s, what, three gallons? Almost? We’ve got to buy some oil. This engine burns through it like crazy.”

“I need five. I’ll take three. Haven’t complained once, and I been doing this all day.”

The new man took Daniels’s gas can and unscrewed the cap. “All day?”

“What you do in the band?”

“Bass. I sing some. I only tour.”

“Yeah?”

“They got a bassist doesn’t want to play their few shows for some reason.”

“Huh.”

“He played on their demo and that’s it till their next batch of songs.”

“I need a full tank. That’s what I meant by all day. I’m so close. I didn’t want to wait even longer.”

The bassist stopped pumping. “You have money?”

“Can’t get to it. Lost my debit card last night and I had four dollars cash in the car.”

“…”

“I’m moving. Just got some clothes in the car. No furniture.”

“Where to?”

“Panama City. Got to get there in one run.”

“That’s ten bucks.”

“So close to a full tank I’ve got one.”

“You want a ride to your car?”

“No.”

“…”

“I like disappearing. My own little bit of independence. I been asking for fuel all day. Hot as balls and just one bottle of water. Whatever gas anyone gave me, I earned it.”

“Good luck.”

“Yeah.”

“If you need it.”

“You have no idea.”

Daniels didn’t wait for the van to drive off, or for the bassist to get in, or even for the bassist to turn around.

Daniels walked off first.


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I write stories to entertain myself, because I enjoy writing them, because I have stories I want to tell, have to tell. But I'm terrible at finishing them. I'm terrible at starting them. I certainly don't hold to a schedule. That means writing stories isn't as fun as it should be, because I'm perpetually behind on ideas and characters I want to pursue—and I never know for sure when I'm going to get to them.

Having a deadline isn't the fun bit, the deadline's frequency is. I'm going to publish a new short story here every two weeks, on the second and fourth Wednesdays of each month. This means at first, and probably for a long while, I'll be posting short shorts, or flash fiction—stories between 750 and 1300 words. Beyond fiction, there's no set genre, which will help to keep the variety up.

I rant about movies and music to whichever of my friends is unfortunate enough to be around me when I feel like talking about film and song. So that I don't slide into one mode of writing, I'm going to be writing one film and one music review per month. Movie reviews will come out the first Wednesday and music reviews will come out the third Wednesday of each month.

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